today, we got back our maths results. i expected myself to not do so well, and yeah, i didn't. i have been getting results like these (maybe worse) for so many of my exams, only this time, i cried. i didn't know why, even till now.
when i saw my marks, i paused. then i started flipping through the paper. the more i flipped, the more i felt my nose was twitching. so i flipped through the paper, like 4 or 5 times. then i felt my eyes watering, but just a little bit. so i continued flipping and telling myself to NOT BREAK DOWN!!! i controlled my tears pretty well, until sher min and rui en came to comfort me.
the moment sher min put her arms around me, my tears flow like nobody's business!!! i don't why...it just did. then the more they comforted me, the more i cried XD i knew from tracia that the more you control, the more easy you will break down when someone comforts you. i think that's why when sher min touched me, like just the slightest bit, i also break down...LOL.
i know crying wouldn't help to increase my marks. crying wouldn't do anything. i just have to make FULL USE OF MY TIME to revise for my EOYS :D
but then now as i think about it, i cried not because i scored badly. actually i improved. but just by like 1 or 2 marks. i realised i cried because i felt that i had let mimimama and miss tan seok kuan down. they trusted in me to do my very best and yet, all they get is like this piece of crap from me. i realised i was WAYYYYYY behind the rest of the class. i HAD to buck up.
the moment i broke down, i suddenly saw the image of me grasping a piece of SA2 2010 exam paper happily and skipping around the class because i really did VERY VERY VERY WELL for my EOYs! and then that thought followed by me enjoying myself in australia with mimimama and tons of other people.
"no pain, no gain" that's so true. if i don't work hard for EOYs, then CONFIRM, 100% GUARANTEE + CHOP i will get the same piece of shit i am getting now.
i know that habits take 21 days to form. but the truth behind this statement is actually the people who would really focus and give their 210% in these 21 days and make studying and revising their habits. I WANT TO BE LIKE THESE PEOPLE!!!!
i have all the empowering statements and stories in my mind. so, BRAIN AND HEART, PLEASE DIGEST AND PROCESS IT AND MAKE IT FLOW IN MY BLOOD!!! :D
I WANT TO CRY WHEN I RECEIVE MY EOY EXAM PAPERS! BUT NOT TEARS OF PAIN AND ALL THE BAD THINGS, THEY WILL BE TEARS OF JOY! :D
JIAYOU TEY ZEE HWEE!!! YOU CAN DO IT, EVERYONE BELIEVES IN YOU!!!! YOU MUST DO IT :D
with loads of love, zee hwee 13/8/2010
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today, we got back our maths results. i expected myself to not do so well, and yeah, i didn't. i have been getting results like these (maybe worse) for so many of my exams, only this time, i cried. i didn't know why, even till now.
when i saw my marks, i paused. then i started flipping through the paper. the more i flipped, the more i felt my nose was twitching. so i flipped through the paper, like 4 or 5 times. then i felt my eyes watering, but just a little bit. so i continued flipping and telling myself to NOT BREAK DOWN!!! i controlled my tears pretty well, until sher min and rui en came to comfort me.
the moment sher min put her arms around me, my tears flow like nobody's business!!! i don't why...it just did. then the more they comforted me, the more i cried XD i knew from tracia that the more you control, the more easy you will break down when someone comforts you. i think that's why when sher min touched me, like just the slightest bit, i also break down...LOL.
i know crying wouldn't help to increase my marks. crying wouldn't do anything. i just have to make FULL USE OF MY TIME to revise for my EOYS :D
but then now as i think about it, i cried not because i scored badly. actually i improved. but just by like 1 or 2 marks. i realised i cried because i felt that i had let mimimama and miss tan seok kuan down. they trusted in me to do my very best and yet, all they get is like this piece of crap from me. i realised i was WAYYYYYY behind the rest of the class. i HAD to buck up.
the moment i broke down, i suddenly saw the image of me grasping a piece of SA2 2010 exam paper happily and skipping around the class because i really did VERY VERY VERY WELL for my EOYs! and then that thought followed by me enjoying myself in australia with mimimama and tons of other people.
"no pain, no gain" that's so true. if i don't work hard for EOYs, then CONFIRM, 100% GUARANTEE + CHOP i will get the same piece of shit i am getting now.
i know that habits take 21 days to form. but the truth behind this statement is actually the people who would really focus and give their 210% in these 21 days and make studying and revising their habits. I WANT TO BE LIKE THESE PEOPLE!!!!
i have all the empowering statements and stories in my mind. so, BRAIN AND HEART, PLEASE DIGEST AND PROCESS IT AND MAKE IT FLOW IN MY BLOOD!!! :D
I WANT TO CRY WHEN I RECEIVE MY EOY EXAM PAPERS! BUT NOT TEARS OF PAIN AND ALL THE BAD THINGS, THEY WILL BE TEARS OF JOY! :D
JIAYOU TEY ZEE HWEE!!! YOU CAN DO IT, EVERYONE BELIEVES IN YOU!!!! YOU MUST DO IT :D